She watches the blades above chop up the air, over and over, the chopped up air doesn't feel the pain, they simply separated for a little while, just a little, they kissed her on her face, gentle, soft.
She listens to her rhythm, the song, her song, thump, thump, thump, thump, a simple beat, nothing fancy.
She accidentally thought about it again, the images filled her, images she doesn't want to see, images she's seen before, how many? Hundreds? Thousands! Thousands of times, she doesn't want to see, she tries to block it out, close the door, think of something else, anything...SHE DOESN'T WANT TO SEE!
Then the sound came. Oh god the sounds. She covered her ears, that didn't work, she didn't think it would, she screams, a desperate attempt to block out the sounds, she screamed till her lungs gave, she screamed till her ears hurt, but still she could hear it above everything else.
Then it came, slowly at first, but like a train it speed up, like the seasons it changed, it evolved, it grew, it threatened to take everything away...it does.
Her grip eased, toes unclenched, she huddled into a ball, hummed a little tune. Tears welled up in her eyes, she kept them tightly shut. The captor demanded a way out of their captive, her eyes stung, she gave in.
Her mind empties slowly, steadily. She regains her composure. She feels the soft kisses from the air again, comforting, cool on her cheeks and her neck.
She closes her eyes, her eyelids now heavy lead, weighted down. She drifts into sleep...come at last.
She smiles', for the first time in a long time, she smiles.
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Haven't written anything in awhile, funny how it never goes away, the joy of becoming someone else, carring someone else's problems as you imagine how they must have felt. "She" is kinda like me now, pathetic.
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